wiggling

October 12, 2010

I'M JUST SO EXCITED TO MEET THIS LITTLE GIRL!

2 MORE DAYS!!!

28 week ultrasound

3 Day Weekend!!!

2.20.2012

What are you doing on Presidents Day?
 US...  were going to be having a baby girl!!!

That is the BIG DAY!!!  We found out today that after all my doctors appointments that I have had this week that the Perinatologist recommended to our doctor that I should be induced on Monday with no amino test done and to just get this baby here.  I really liked the Perinatologist we saw yesterday she kept on saying just because we don't know what happened with the first one I would want my baby as soon as I could.  When I told her I got the steroid shots over the weekend she said well lets not do the amino test than and just bring this baby here.  I wish I knew her at the beginning of this pregnancy I think I would of just stuck with her as my main Perinatologist.

Well I have been going in for NST every other day and to my regular doctor every other day.  So I have heard her little heartbeat every single day and I love it.  There is so much comfort in just hearing her heartbeat I can fall asleep listening to the constant beating of her heart.  I am almost dilated to a 3 so my doctor says this labor should be fast.  My family is saying it will only last for 4 hours.  I hope so. 

I have loved being pregnant with her even if she was a little stinker a couple times towards the end.  I have loved being able to bond with her before she is even in my arms.  I love that I already know some of her personality traits.  I have loved feeling her move inside of me even when she would go head down than back to being transverse or head up...  I think she just loves hearing my heartbeat.

Somethings that I'm hoping that she has I want her to have red hair like her daddy.  I know she is going to be daddy's little girl because she wiggles a lot when she hears his voice and when were hooked up to the monitors her little heartbeat goes up when he talks.  I'm hoping that she is at least 6 pounds.  I have been feasting on food like crazy.  So hopefully she has been gaining.

My Friday Update

On Friday my mom and I went to the Perinatologist for the NST.  My hubby had some volunteer work at school the same time as the appointment.  I was all hooked up listening to her heartbeat when they came in and told me I had to go for another test using an ultrasound.  They needed to see her diaphragm move consistently for 30 also other little movement that test for muscle tones.  Miss Z passed all 8 but they wanted me to check into the hospital because of my history for a 24 hour time period.  Friday they had me get the steroid shot in my bum to help her lungs develop faster if they were going to have to induce me.  We were still talking about me getting induced on Saturday morning.  But Saturday morning came and went and when the afternoon showed up after my very painful shot they had decided that little Miss Z was healthy and was doing everything she needed to do.  Plus she is NO LONGER HEAD DOWN meaning they would have to give me a c-section.  NO THANK YOU.  (I think the reason why she is head down is because they were playing cat and mouse with that monitor and that she has enough wiggle room she went back to being sideways.  She better go head down or I'm going to give her a new name.

My emotional health I have been a basket case.  I'm not trying to worry about something going wrong which I don't think there will be anything go wrong.  I know that my Heavenly Father and my little angel are watching over us.  Our plan is for me to stay in the hospital for the next week until I can get induced and be monitored twice each day more if I'm stressing about not feeling her move.  I can't wait to meet this little girl and hold her.

So all I'm really asking for is prayers of comfort and help with my emotional strength.  My mind keeps going back to her older sister.  Which I miss daily and even more now that she would have been a big sister to a stubborn little girl. 

doctor visit update

I got to hear her little heartbeat!!! I'm also already dilated to a 2 holy cow!  We also set up for me to be induced 2/22/12 I'm pretty sure that will be her birthday!  But if not we will love to have her here on 2/23.

Nerves

I have another doctors appointment tomorrow... and guess what my anxiety levels are up.  I am know back to worrying about this little one every single day like at the beginning of my pregnancy.  My stress of not hearing a heart beat at a doctors appointment scares me.  When the doctor pulls out the Doppler for the heart beat my body goes into a panic mode until I hear the heart beat.  It scares me more now than in the middle of the 2nd trimester.

I'm afraid to get myself all excited about our little girl joining the world... because I miss her older sister so much.  I have to have faith that everything is going to work out for the best.

I know that when I hear the first cry I will be one relieved mommy and I will be able to hold my little girl in my arms and dream of her future.

I will update about how the doctors appointment goes.  It is crazy to think that we are 2 weeks away from meeting her.

 PINTEREST!!!

Sneak Peak

We have a sneak peak at the walls of her room!  We moved into our house at the end of January and now we are on a time crunch to get everything done before she comes.  This week hubby worked hard on painting her room when he wasn't at school.  I love how the colors turned out.  I love gray it is one of my favorite colors.  I love how the pink makes it look girly.  I was just going to do gray at first but than we decided to add a color from her bedding to the walls.  I'm so glad that we did.  We have got the crib together and now it is just the finishing touches of putting things away and I finding things to decorate the walls with.

On Friday we had another non-stress test she passed it off perfectly within a half hour!  The perinatologist called her an Amazing baby!  This makes this mama proud.  We got to see a sneak peak of her also.  I mean literally a sneak peak she had her hands up covering her face when they were checking my fluid and to see where they would put the heart monitor.  She has FINALLY decided to put her head down!  I have her back up in my ribs on my left side and her little bum is on the right side of my ribs.

We have also decided on a name before Christmas and I thought I would let you know she is little miss Z.  That is how I will be referring to her on this blog.

!!!17 more days!!!

34 weeks!!!

!!!!!!!!3 MORE WEEKS!!!!!

Today we had our last ultrasound of little miss before she comes.  I got to see her little nose and her tummy, kidneys, stomach, bladder, and her heart all working.  I got to listen to her practice breathing.  As I laid down on the table watching the screen I thought about the first time I got to see her.  Before we even knew she was a girl.  Before she was a little peanut and the doctors just saw the flicker of a heartbeat.  While hubby and I just sat there watching cells multiply to create a little baby.  It was miracle to see her as a little perfect diamond circle.  It is crazy to think that in a couple of weeks I will be holding her in my arms in love all over again with another beautiful spirit from our loving Heavenly Father who has given me another chance to be a mommy to one of His children.  So the first ultrasound we got to watch the miracle of life happen with this ultrasound we got to watch a little girl flinch away from the ultrasound thing.  Her stats from this ultrasound are:

• she is in 25 percentile of her gestational age.  She is 31 weeks big instead of 33 weeks and 6 days.  But that is okay they only start to worry when babies are measuring above 90% or less than 10% so she is just a little peanut.  (that could be why I hardly look pregnant)
• she is 4 pounds 3 ounces.
• she passed the non-stress test (NST) it was perfect she did everything they needed her to do.
• her heart is beating and looks perfect.
• she is a little feisty one when she wants to be.
• and the best for last her head is still up yep that is right she is to comfortable living up near my ribs and listening to my heartbeat.

I want to share what a Non-Stress Test (NST) is like.  They hook you up to the heart monitor and the contraction monitors.  They listen to the babies heartbeat for an hour to see how well the heart does while being active.  Little miss was asleep so they used this little machine that just makes a buzzing noise and vibrates just a little bit.  They put it up by her head and pressed the button it lasted for maybe two seconds and wow did she go crazy it seemed like she was about to burst out my stomach.  But she did wake up her heartbeat was being a constant 125 because she was sleeping but as soon as she got the little buzz it went up to 154.  After that she was trying to hide from the monitors so I had to hold the heart monitor over her so that we could listen to her little heart beating.

Another big exciting thing about this appointment today was being able to set up the amino test.  It is a test to see if the lungs are fully developed.  The date is set February 21 and if her lungs are developed I will be induced.  If her lungs are not they will send me home and have me come back February 22 in the morning to be induced.
Question time how does that work only a couple of more hours to give her a chance for her lungs to develop.  Well babies develop so quickly that just a couple hours more of me carrying her she will develop.  This test could also break my water and if it does the only thing that they worry about but not really is that they will have to have her on a ventilator for just a couple of hours until her lungs develop.

Hubby and I have also moved into the house that we found last October this past weekend.  So these next three weeks are going to fly by.  Between me nesting, doctors visits, cleaning house, and unpacking boxes we will be busy.

I just can't believe that in three weeks my pregnancy will be over and there will be a new little girl in this world!

update

I learned something new this week.  I was online reading support groups for people who have still born babies.  I kept on seeing "my rainbow baby..." and was very confused when I was reading it.  I did a little investigating on the internet.  I learned that a rainbow baby is for the pregnancy after having a still born. I'm happy to say this put a smile on my face not just a little one but a big one.  Our family when we see a rainbow we are reminded of our little angel.  I'm so happy that our little girl is the rainbow baby for her big sister.  It is a comfort that the term Rainbow is used for the baby after the loss.

I'm so excited to meet our little rainbow baby and have her as the reminder of her big sister.

We went to the doctor on Wednesday the heartbeat was 145 perfect and she is currently making her way down by making a pit stop... she is laying horizontally and trying to break free through my sides with all of her kicking.  In 2 weeks we will be going for our 34 week ultrasound and the first non-stress test and setting up the appointment to check her lungs to see if they are done or not.  If they are done they will induce me that day if not they will just wait one more day and than induce me.  I can't believe it time sure is starting to slow down and speed up right now.

Fortunes

Hubby and I play a game when we go to Panda Express for dinner.  We ask each other what our fortune  cookie is going to be about.

Last night I asked him what my fortune was going to be?  Hubby said about the baby...

this is the fortune...

6 weeks...

Crazy to think that in 6 weeks I will no longer be pregnant and instead have a baby.  I was thinking of my journey and how I still have anxiety, yes I'm still having anxiety.  My little girls sleeping patterns are just like mine.  She is awake during most of the night in fact she is kicking me right now.  She is asleep during the morning when I'm asleep with a few kicks every once in awhile.  But than her longest sleeping stretch to me is 3-7pm.  I don't feel any little movements or kicks.  I know she is sleeping she will wiggle if I drink something but I don't feel her kick and I feel her kick enough until 10pm when she goes back to a nap and than she wakes up again at 11:30 and stays active all night.  I love her moving it makes me smile every time I feel a little movement.

Our journey for babies by the end of this one has given me 80 weeks.  That is a total of 2 normal pregnancies.  But the 80 weeks is actually THREE babies.
The first time we found out we were pregnant was in July of 2009 and I was 5 weeks along when I had the miscarriage.
The second time we found out we were pregnant was in January of 2010 and my heart broke at 38 weeks when I delivered our still born daughter.
The third time we found out we were pregnant was on July 7, 2011 and with this pregnancy.  I'm being closely monitored by my doctor and the perinatologist.  Which gives me the biggest comfort.  Our next appointment with the perinatologist is on January 27 and we will have another ultrasound and start the non-stress tests.  We will also be setting up the date for when this little girl will join the world.

Everyday that I'm pregnant is a great blessing... I know I said I wanted to keep a week to week update with this pregnancy and document how I was feeling and I have not really done that but instead I have been enjoying every minute of being another mommy to another baby.  So far in the third trimester I have had heartburn galore.  Tums are my best friend I have a bottle I just carry around.

The New Year!

I had an exciting weekend starting on Friday.  I woke up at 10:00am after working all night to watch a Bowl game with my hubby and friends.  I wasn't feeling all that great... I thought I had morning sickness.  I threw up (sorry for that little detail) and at first I thought it was just my stomach just hurting... but than my back started to hurt.  I waited a couple of seconds and the pain went away.  I was going to go join my husband when I felt the tightening happen all again.  I was thinking oh this is just a braxton hicks contraction nothing to worry about.  It wasn't until feeling it for the third time I started to worry.  I called my sister to ask her the pregnancy question of which one I was having... She just told me to call the doctor.  I set up an appointment with the doctor.  I than went to sit out on the couch grabbed a glass full of water so I could drink some water and than go lay down.  When I took a swallow of the water I had to run to the bathroom.  My friend came with me to the doctors so that hubby could continue watching the football game.  We got to the doctors we went and sat in the little room for not even 5 minutes and the doctor was there to check me out.  I had got a viral infection which was playing with all my insides and starting the contractions because I was becoming dehydrated.  I called the hubby because I was being sent to the Labor/Delivery at the hospital to get the monitors hooked up to my belly and to get IV fluid.  Hubby came and got me and we walked into the room that my husband pointed out is where we found out the news of our daughter being a still born.  He asked if I wanted to be moved I said no, I can't be afraid of just a little room.  I got on the bed and than the nurse came into the room to do the routine reading of questions and me answering.  Than the monitors were placed on my belly and for a full hour I got to hear my little girls heartbeat while my hubby watched the rest of the football game.  We laughed the first time we heard the thunk over the heart monitor and than a couple more she was going to town trying to kick it off.  I wasn't registering has having any contractions because my uterus is still small.  The nurse didn't say that I couldn't be having them she said I probably was because dehydration brings contractions on.  They sent me home and had me rest.  I rested over this weekend taking everything easy.  I went to work the next night and I was still having little contractions off and on.  I haven't felt one for the last couple of days.


But in less than 7 weeks we will have our little girl with us and I can't wait to kiss those cheeks.  Also we bought her coming home outfit yesterday and it is so cute!

28 week ultrasound pictures

Baby Girl 27 weeks 6 days

Left foot

Just wanted to show you the cute little baby girl growing!!!

Oh Baby!

Hubby and I went to see our little girl at the 28 week ultrasound...

she is healthy.
she is a week behind in her gestational age... but don't worry it is nothing to worry about because her stomach is right on time.
So she is just a peanut.
Her heart is beating healthy with all 4 chambers.
Her brain is perfect.
she weighs 2pounds and 4ounces.
She is currently head up she will have enough time to do the big move for the big day.
That explains why I feel hiccups near my ribs and kicks still down past my belly button.

and in 6 more weeks we go back for another ultrasound and start the non-stress test and that is when we will set up the appointment to have her.  that sounds so funny we will set the appointment for the day she will be born like oh you know we can't be late to this one we might just miss out.

but holy cow that is in 9 more weeks... and I'M SO EXCITED TO MEET HER AND LOVE ON HER!

Baby Names

Hubby and I are still debating about this little girls name...  So every once in awhile I go on the internet for the search of names.  But here are some names I know for sure we would never use but somebody somewhere did... are you ready...

Facebook

Yes, someone named their kid Facebook, and no, it wasn’t Mark Zuckerberg. An Egyptian man named his daughter Facebook to celebrate the social media site’s role in protests in Egypt against then-president Hosni Mubarak. Activists used the website to organize demonstrations that ultimately led to Mubarak’s exit. So even though the guy had a good reason behind the name choice, maybe he could’ve gone with something a little more low-key? This moniker is definitely newsfeed-worthy, but that’s not necessarily a good thing.
(source)

Like

And you thought it was going to end there. Nope. Perhaps inspired by baby girl Facebook, an Israeli couple named their daughter Like, after the Facebook button. The couple wanted a unique name and thought it was short and sweet. Like’s parents don’t think that she’ll be teased in school -- we’re not so sure about that. What’s next? A baby named “Comment” or “See Friendship”?
(source)

The journey of being pregnant after a loss

The journey of this pregnancy...

 (I'm not complaining about be pregnant I just want to remember that this is what  I went through with this little one)

The first trimester:
I was sick... not just occasionally sick.  I mean I had morning sickness everyday... I lost 10 pounds during the first trimester.  I was worried about miscarrying this little one.  Even though when we went to the Perinatolgist the first time and saw the Perfect Round Cell sack that they called a diamond pregnancy and looked perfectly healthy.  I was still worried.  I do remember getting to hear the babies heartbeat the first time and the little swish swish sound our little peanut was making.  It is one of the greatest sounds to hear.

The second trimester:
Is almost over?!  I can't believe that the 2nd trimester is almost over.  I still have morning sickness but not as much.  There is usually one day out of the week that I'm just nauseous and don't have any energy.  We got to do find out that we were having a girl and I cried when we found out we were having a girl.  I did prepare myself for a boy but it just didn't feel right and that is why last second before we went into the fetal studio I told hubby we were having a girl.  I am so excited to meet this little girl and hear her cry for the first time and everything that comes with having a baby.

I wanted to right about my emotional health this pregnancy...  The first trimester I was in shock we were going to be having another baby!  The second trimester has been good... but I'm now a little worried mommy.  I have been fighting this for awhile...  My fear is loosing this little girl also.  It is hard not to worry about it but it is there.  I love feeling her kick get the hiccups and do the little dances she is doing in my tummy.  I soak in every single one because it is truly a miracle that I get to feel this and create a bond with this little girl before she is here.  She is with me 24/7 I can't say here honey you take her for a moment so that I can get some sleep.  I love that I can talk to her and sing to her and know that she is just listening to my heartbeat when I'm silent.  Than this is when the fear kicks in that I may loose the chance again of seeing her breathe.  It comforts me that I have a doctor and also a Perinatologist.  I'm so excited that instead of just one ultrasound for this pregnancy I will have a total of three and the second one is coming up and we will get to see how our little girl is developing.  I'm excited that next month we will start going to the doctor appointments more and that we will be able to do non-stress tests for her.  I'm not a complete wreck worrying about this all the time.  I just think about it sometimes... it is just exactly as the doctor said the first appointment... The doctor told me this pregnancy will work out he asked if I knew it and I just said okay.  My doctor than said I understand your not going to feel safe until you see that first breath of air.  Which is very true and until that day I will be a worried mommy and than after that day I'm still going to be a worried mommy but for a good reason. 

Blessings!!!

Hubby and I are feeling very blessed in life right now!!!  We are going to be parents to another little girl and we couldn't be more thrilled!  We have been getting good news in the house hunt.  We put in an offer on a 5 bedroom 3 bath house!  We are now in the process of waiting... the house in no longer listed on the real estate website good news for us!!!

Tomorrow we go for our 20 week ultrasound with the Perinatologist  tomorrow.  My anxiety levels go up the night before doctors appointments.  I'm afraid I have to admit that we won't be able to hear the heartbeat of our little baby.  It is not until I hear the beating of the strong little heart that I'm comforted.  I guess the worrying has already begun for our little girl.  We are excited to be able to go see our little girl tomorrow and watch her as she wiggles and moves in my body.  I have also been feeling the little kicks of our little girl and her wiggling.  I love when I feel the little pop of a kick its a big comfort.

 My mom was diagnosed with cancer 5 years ago and has been curing it the natural way.  All of her children are amazed at the strength she has.  My mom has been doing amazing things with the help of nature.  We have watched tumors come and than shrink.  I'm pretty sure it is my moms strength and her faith that makes the tumors just want to disappear.  Well last week my sister went to the Oncologist with her.  It was a new Oncologist that my mom hasn't been to before.  My mom explained that she is curing it the natural way with no chemo and radiation.  The Oncologist explained that the chemo my mom would have for her cancer is different.  There is an antibiotic type drug that they use along with chemo and can be used without the chemo.  Basically the antibiotic type drug attaches to the cancer cells to get rid of them.  My mom has agreed to do the treatments without the chemo and if she needs to have chemo when all the treatments are done she will consider it.  We are feeling so blessed to have this doctor come into my moms life and tell her that he can help and not just give up on her because she wants to treat it naturally.  My mom definitely has guardian angels watching over her and will be with her to comfort her tomorrow as she goes in for her first treatment.  I am asking that your prayers will be with her as she takes on this new step in treatment.

My "mini" Breakdown

I had the breakdown of having to go buy some new maternity pants.  On Friday Hubby and I were getting ready to go cheer on the BYU Cougars Football team.  I was getting ready and I was about to button my pants up when I realized there was no hope in the button reaching across my tummy to the button loop.  It had only been a week since I last worn these jeans and they were fitting me okay with the elastic band wrapped around a week ago.  But on Friday there was no chance of the rubber band even helping me.  Well it probably could of worked but my emotions were not letting me think clearly.  I went over to my hubby and asked if we could go shopping for a pair of maternity jeans because there was no way I could sit on the bleachers for 3+ hours worrying about keeping my pants up.  I was so happy when I found a pair of pants in petite and the size I needed and that was the only pair they had and they fit perfectly.  So after shopping, having dinner out with the hubs, bowling before the football game, and than the game and winning the game.  We had a wonderful date night after my "mini" breakdown.  I asked hubby while we were eating how bad my breakdown was and he said "it wasn't that bad." so that is why this is just a mini breakdown.  I guess I will have the bigger breakdown when my shirts stop fitting me correctly.

Our Little Apple

WEEK 15

 

I didn't post about my first trimester like I thought I was going to do... long story short.  I have spent my time sleeping and hanging out with my friend the toilet.  I have had the glorious morning sickness.  I am starting to get more energy which is nice.  I love being able to get up from sleeping and not feel like I haven't slept a couple of days.

 I have been starting to crave foods.  I love salads, apples, and tomato sandwiches.  

FUN THINGS ABOUT HOW OUR BABY IS DEVELOPING:
Your growing baby now measures about 4 inches long, crown to rump, and weighs in at about 2 1/2 ounces (about the size of an apple). She's busy moving amniotic fluid through her nose and upper respiratory tract, which helps the primitive air sacs in her lungs begin to develop. Her legs are growing longer than her arms now, and she can move all of her joints and limbs. Although her eyelids are still fused shut, she can sense light. If you shine a flashlight at your tummy, for instance, she's likely to move away from the beam. There's not much for your baby to taste at this point, but she is forming taste buds. Finally, if you have an ultrasound this week, you may be able to find out whether your baby's a boy or a girl! (Don't be too disappointed if it remains a mystery, though. Nailing down your baby's sex depends on the clarity of the picture and on your baby's position. He or she may be modestly curled up or turned in such a way as to "hide the goods.") (source)

The First Appointment

My first appointment with the Perinatologist was on July 19...

I'm not as far along as I expected... I think we found out we were pregnant when we were only two or three weeks along CRAZY!!!

They did a ultrasound and guess what I have a tipped uterus which I think I knew that from my 2 previous pregnancies.  So they had to do the other one...  and when we were expecting to see a little peanut we saw no peanut but a little yolk sack yep that is right we got to see our little baby before it is a peanut.  The Perinatologist and the nurse said that they could see the heart flicker.  We couldn't.  The good news Herm looks like a healthy pregnancy the Dr. said something about it being a diamond pregnancy because Herm is so perfectly round.  So in another couple weeks my hubby and I will be doing another ultrasound to see the peanut.

When it comes time for the 20th week ultrasound it will be up to my doctor if he sends me to the Perinatologist or someone at his office.  The doctor told us when we would be seeing her more frequently around the 35th week.  I will start going to her and my other doctor weekly.  The Perinatologist will be running the stress test on Herm.  At 37 weeks we can make the decision to do a test to see if Herm's lungs are fully developed if they are they will induce me the next day.  They also said that if I was feeling good I could go up to 39 weeks and they would induce me a week early.  We will see when the time comes what will happen.  Mind you that I had my stillborn at 38 weeks so I don't think I will want to go past 38 weeks.

They said they just saw one yolk sac and one flicker of a heartbeat YEPEE!!! I HAVE A BABY GROWING IN ME!!!

and the followup with our regular doctor:

Before the First Visit

I'm so nervous... about the doctors appointment on Tuesday.  I am still kind of in shock that I'm pregnant.  We have been trying for 6+ months and I can't believe that we finally are pregnant.  I don't know what to expect with the Perinatologist visit.  I know that my normal Dr. were going to call him Dr. W. how the visits go.  I just don't know how it is going to go with the Perinatologist. What I'm hoping is that they will do an ultrasound and that we will see a little peanut and a heartbeat.  I am also hoping that we will have a healthy pregnancy.  I had my first miscarriage in the month of July so my mind is worried about seeing it happen all over again.  I'm staying positive but my mind does wander to the dreadful day when I found out that we were pregnant and than less than a week later I went through a miscarriage.  I have been starving and extremely tired so I think that is a good sign with the pregnancy.  I just wanted to write down my thoughts about going to the Perinatologist because I don't want it going around and around in my head and getting me all stressed out.

*There will be another post at noon today